You might be wondering why the name change? To be honest when I first started this blog I was so deep with my anxiety that I couldn’t decide on a cool name. I knew that I wanted it to be memorable and had a great story behind it. As my blog grew older and I began to explore more options of what could potentially become of this little old blog, I realized a few things.
- The name is a mouthful
- My indecision was my key niche
- I was more than just fashion and style any more
There are a lot of things that I love that encompass who I am as a person. Fashion, beauty, passion and my openness about my mental health. The indecision that was part of my name and who I had created on this blog was truly that. You’ll see my older looks are very much all over the place. Why? Because I couldn’t decide what I wanted to wear. I was too busy looking at what everyone else was sharing rather than what I loved to wear and what I would wear 99% of the time.
My style is grungy but girly. I don’t have a grey area in my style and neither do I have one as a person. I’ve never understood grey areas and I never will. For this new name I wanted it to encompass too many different things – a full editorial of the passions in my life:
- Mental Health
Fashion and style are my passions and there will never be a shortage of that here I promise! I also love beauty and fun makeup looks, so I want to share more of that creativity with you all here. My mental health is something I’ve debated about sharing. Up until recently I realized I was very vocal about it in person but not here. My indecision on what to wear and what to share 100% stems from my anxiety disorder and I want to explore that more here.
Most women struggle with anxiety. Women are twice as likely to be affected as men with anxiety disorders. At 26 years old I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD). The really crappy part about that is the cause of why I have this is unknown. The ADDA (Anxiety and Depression Association of America) states there is evidence that biological factors, family background, and life experiences, particularly stressful ones, play a role. Not turning this into a therapy post here but you get the point.
I based my entire blog on my indecision without even realizing that it was heavily connected to my mental health. Battling depression since I was 15 years old I knew that adding anxiety on top of it was the polar opposite of what I was so used to dealing with. However, depression and indecision with anxiety to boot can make my indecision skyrocket further. Indecisiveness is an effect of anxiety that creates a high degree of frustration.
So with this new name, I am going to merge the 3 biggest parts of me and push this out into my blog. And the first short story I’m going to share is about this dress and this makeup look:
I picked up this dress in short hills mall at Aritzia while shopping with my sister in law. Everything was marked down on sale so I figured I would browse around. This store encompasses my style so much, the perfect balance of sporty yet girly. When I saw this dress on the rack I thought to myself “oh this is nice, but do they have my size?” Size 4 was the largest size they have and your girl ain’t a size 4! Since the dress was flowier at the bottom I figured I’d try it on. Luckily it fit, even with it over my leggings. AND IT WAS MARKED DOWN!
Knowing this was a great dress to share on my blog since it was such a steal I struggled with how to style it. Last-minute I had a shoot with Amanda and I knew I wanted to wear this dress. My DSW faux leather booties just came in the mail so I took it as a sign to pair it with my new dress. The dark lip was such a risk. I’ve worn it once before on a Shay Mitchell look here but I haven’t worn it since. Am I glad I did? YES!
These shots came out perfect and I knew it would be a great way to introduce my new vision.
Doyle’s Editorial: Mind. Fashion. Beauty.
Shop the look…
- Babaton Hamptons Dress
- Madden Girl Dafni Bootie
- MAC Cosmetics Retro Matte Liquid Lipstick – High Drama